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Djoere's natural father called - I could see his caller id - I didn't answer the phone, just didn't want to hear his voice, didn't want to be bothered by him. I asked Djoere if he wanted to speak with him, but no, he didn't want to, so ok, we didn't answer the phone. Many many years I waited for him to call, to notice us, me, Djoere - he never did. Now it doesn't matter if he never calls again - lol, now I rather wished he didn't. Because I have not yet really freed myself from this - still got… Continue

The new CEO of Virgin Media, Neil Berkett, has openly stated in an interview that they think net neutrality is “a load of bollocks” and claimed they're already doing deals to deliver some people’s content faster than others. They would then put websites and services that don't pay Virgin in the "slow lane", meaning those sites would load slowly and cause most users to give up using them, feeling forced… Continue

am watching this vid of Matti about how the ego supports. And yes, I do experience that, and I've noticed many times before, this reaction in my chest, of expectation - and what I do is immediately put some kind of armour around me so the comments or 'worse' no comments at all :) wont hurt me. And I notice, I observe but DID NOT direct myself, did not script myself, but kept on lingering on these old habits, old creations. I did not move, I just observed, fooling myself that's good enough. Eno… Continue

Now I know what to do, now I understand: scripting myself. Haa, it's like a veil has come off my head or whatever. Directing myself. Do sf on whatever comes up. Creating. Deleting. Creating. Early this morning I woke up, sexually aroused, but still very sleepy - maybe I dreamt, I can't remember - anyway, I started masturbating, just a second or two and then I realised what I was doing and immediately stated I didn't want to feed this unified field and stopped. Felt asleep rightaway. So cool! I… Continue

to submit: ww onderwerpen; aanvullen; voorstellen; indienen; beweren hmmmm me onderwerpen aan, heb me onderworpen aan... Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik van mezelf heb geaccepteerd en toegestaan om me te onderwerpen aan de kritische eisen van Ingolf vroeger uit angst hem kwijt te raken. Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik van mezelf heb geaccepteerd en toegestaan om mezelf kleiner te maken dan ik ben uit angst een kopje kleiner gemaakt te worden. Ik vergeef mezelf dat ik van mezelf heb geaccepteerd en toegestaa… Continue