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Daily Interdimensional Diary: 16 October 2008 God of Man: The Physical: Part Eight (Section 3) Con…

Daily Interdimensional Diary:
16 October 2008

God of Man: The Physical: Part Eight (Section 3)

Continuing in this section with how to ‘pull the Jack-In-The-Box Memory through’ into and as your current experience of yourself in your world and your world itself to be able to clearly see the ‘behavioral conditioning’ as habit.

After you’ve ‘broken down’ the Jack-In-The-Box Memory into and as all its ‘parts’ as discussed within the previous document, have a look at yourself here currently and all other that is ‘directly involved’ within your life experience at the moment as follows:

1. Here you start first with the ‘Nature of the Physical Action’ we investigated in the previous document, which was ‘Step Two’ we looked at in relation to the Jack-In-The-Box Memory.
2. Then, you look at ‘Step One’ which was the Physical Action you took during the event or experience in relation to the Jack-In-The-Box Memory.
3. After this is done, you look at ‘Step Three’ which is the Physical Action you took after the event or experience took place within the Jack-In-The-Box Memory.

Starting with ‘Step Two’ – have the Nature of the Physical Action investigated in relation to the Jack-In-The-Box Memory, and how it relates to your current experience of yourself within your world as it is at the moment.

What we determined in Step Two is the experience of yourself as the ‘powerless victim’ in the face of ‘authoritative-stance’ as another – and the expression of the ‘authoritative-stance’ towards you as ‘abuse.’

Now you observe in your world:

Who and What within your world currently represent an ‘authoritative-stance’ towards whom you experience yourself as ‘the powerless victim’ – within which you experience yourself as ‘taken for granted’ or ‘not considered’ as the manifested experience of ‘being abused/hurt’ because of the ‘authoritative-figures’ expression towards you’ – wherein you believe you ‘have no choice but to remain silent and ‘take the hit/punch’ of the experience/expression towards you.

This can be ‘pulled through’ to ‘individual human beings’ and also ‘situations’ within which you’re involved as you participate in your world and all that is involved in your world.

Please, take note – this is not about creating an ‘opposite-physical-reaction’ which you ‘act out’ towards another as ‘retaliation’ or ‘rebellion’ in an attempt to ‘fight back.’
This is about ‘changing you here’ within the experience WITHIN AND AS WHO YOU ARE HERE, because you’ll realise as we continue, that it has got nothing to do with the situation as an ‘outer-experience’ involved outside of you – but your self-directive principle with regards to who you are here in the moment of breath.

Let’s continue:
To be able to ‘more specifically’ see ‘who or what’ in your world represents the ‘authoritative-stance’ towards which you experience yourself as the ‘powerless victim being abused’ by what exists in your world, you look at Step One: The Physical Action which was the act of crying due to the Nature of the Physical Action (as discussed in the previous document):

In bringing this point to your current experience of yourself in your world at the moment, look towards who or what in your world, you very quickly, almost instantaneously, automatically react towards within yourself, in either a ‘flurry of emotions/feelings’ within which you start crying immediately, or as emotions immediately rising up within you, surging as a volcano erupting or slightly moving as a storm brewing; in essence, the reaction you experience in the face of ‘confrontation’ or ‘conflict,’ wherein your emotions suddenly, automatically ‘rise up’ within and as you, directed towards the situation or being.

What is the ‘primary nature’ the ‘Jack-In-The-Box Memory’ reveal? In the example used, the primary nature of the Memory is that of ‘conflict’ in ‘confrontation’ – and this is also ‘important’ to ‘identify’ when observing, breaking down the Jack-In-The-Box Memory.

After you have look at The Nature of the Physical Action (Step Two) and The Physical Action (Step One) in relation to you and your world with regards to looking at the questions proposed within the examples above – you ‘merge both Step Two and Step One’ together – to see ‘more specifically’ the direct correlation between the two in your current experience of yourself in your world:

Towards who or what within your world that in a moment of a conflicting/confrontational situation, do you experience yourself as ‘the powerless victim being abused’ by that which represents ‘authority,’ which causes you to almost immediately react towards within yourself in emotions/feelings that suddenly, ‘seemingly out of nowhere’ automatically ‘surge up’ inside yourself?

Understand – in how I’m moving with you through the steps with regards to how to ‘take the Jack-In-The-Box Memory’ with ‘asking yourself the questions’ – first do exactly this:

Placing together the questions by first starting with Step Two alone, then Step One alone, then merging the questions asked in Step One and Step Two together to get a ‘fuller perspective’.
From there, you look at Step Three alone – asking the questions related to Step Three as the Physical Action taken after the experience in relation to your world currently from what was revealed and investigated in the Memory.
Finally, place the merging question of Step Two and Step One together with the questions asked for yourself in Step Three - as one complete question – to specifically ‘work from there’ as your ‘starting point to see the ‘behavioral conditioning’ as ‘habit’ that you have manifested as yourself.

Now for asking yourself the questions pertaining to Step Three: The Physical Action taken after a ‘conflicting,’ ‘confrontational’ event within which you were directly involved by – through looking at the ‘protection-mechanism’ as ‘defense mechanism’ :

What do you do with yourself when the emotions suddenly start surging up inside you as a volcano erupting as a ‘more explosive surge of emotions/feelings rising up within you’ or as a ‘storm brewing’ as a more ‘subtle’ movement of emotions/feelings culminating within you?

Do you:
‘Throw a tantrum in anger, frustration or rage towards the other because you believed you ‘didn’t get your way’ – thereby ‘acting out’ the surge of emotions within you?

‘Turn around and run away from/walk away from the situation, being in a flurry of emotions before the experience concluded itself, meaning in the middle of the ‘conversation’ as ‘confrontation’ / ‘conflict’ turn around and walk away and cry by yourself alone in a secluded space? Or ‘get away from the environment entirely as in taking your bike/car and just riding/driving to ‘cool down’ or going to ‘someone else’ towards whom to express what you experience within yourself that was caused by the situation or other being(s) that was also involved?

‘Keep silent during the conversation/experience, ‘keeping the surge of emotions/feelings’ suppressed inside yourself as to not ‘show’ what you’re actually experiencing within – keeping quiet until the other is finished / event is over – turning around and walking away with your thoughts rambling in anger and resentment towards the other/situation, OR turning around, walking away, getting away from the environment entirely or going to someone else to express what you experienced what you experience within yourself that was caused by the situation/event or other being(s) that was also involved?

Take the physical action or exact stance of the one that you perceive is ‘abusing you’ and do exactly unto them as what is being done unto you – attempting to ‘win the battle’ to ‘justify yourself’ and what you experience within – as in ‘rebelling/retaliating?’

Keeping quiet during the event/experience ‘making as though you are agreeing’ with the situation/being that you’re facing as/within the confrontational/conflicting event – though within your mind silently plotting a means of revenge to ‘get back at them’ for what you perceived has ‘been done unto you’ – instead of you realising that the situation/event is merely reflecting you as what you’re accepting and allowing yourself to exist as?

Here are but a few examples.

You have to self honestly observe within yourself and identify the ‘protection-mechanism’ you ‘incorporate’ after such an confrontational/conflicting event with other human beings.
This ‘protection-mechanism’ as ‘physically lived action’ you take because of the starting point of the slight/explosive surge of emotions experienced within yourself.

Now the step before ‘The Final Step’ within which you will be clearly able to identify the ‘Behavioral Conditioning’ as manifested physical habit that you exist as: place all three steps together in and as one complete question:

Within a conflicting/confrontational situation: with who or what particular being or environment that represents an ‘authoritative-stance’ within which you experience yourself as the ‘powerless-victim’ ‘without choice or right’ believing yourself to be ‘disregarded’ and ‘inferiorized’ as the experience of being ‘abused,’ which causes an automatic, sudden, immediate surge of explosive/culminating emotions/feelings within you – which manifests the ‘protection-mechanism’ (for example) wherein you ‘act out’ in the emotions/feelings as ‘throwing a tantrum’ and yelling/screaming ‘attempting to get your way’ as a means to ‘defend yourself’ because you believe something of yourself is being ‘threatened?’

Now you take this one question – and look at the experiences of yourself in your world currently.

Dependent on how specific you ‘ask the questions’ and your self honest self-perspective and insight with regards to the Memory and the ‘breaking down’ and ‘investigation’ of yourself within your current experience of yourself in your world in relation to that Memory will depend on how specifically you will be able to ‘detect’ and ‘see’ the exact precise nature of the ‘behavioral conditioning’ as manifested physical habit that you exist as and express in physical action within you and your world currently.

Understand, the specificity within all this will assist with the specificity of your self-corrective action in self-corrective practical application to stop yourself from existing as such a ‘behavioral conditioning’ as ‘habit’ that you manifested, created, designed as yourself related to a Memory.

Therefore, I’d suggest be very specific – because your self-specificity within this will assist and support your specificity in the changing of yourself from existing as a ‘behavioral conditioned’ habit as system created as yourself from but a Memory – to existing here in self honest self expression.

The ‘behavioral conditioning’ as manifested habit that you exist as is:
When in a conflicting, confrontational situation – you immediately act in resistance to the event/situation/being – ‘no questions asked’ – due to all the ‘beliefs’ or ‘perceptions’ involved:

The other being ‘authoritative’
You the ‘inferior’ as the ‘powerless victim’ being ‘abused’
You not having choice, right, being disregarded, attacked - hence you wanting to ‘protect’ and ‘defend’ yourself.

Which all leads to you going into ‘resistance’ towards the experience or being, and in the face of ‘resistance’ going into ‘retaliation’ or ‘rebellion’ mode either physically subtly within yourself, or physically expressive – as a means to ‘defend’ and ‘protect’ yourself from the ‘resistance’ that is experienced.

So, the manifested ‘behavioral conditioning’ as ‘habit’ is ‘acting in automated resistance’ within a ‘confrontational,’ ‘conflicting’ situation or event.

Living the habit which is existing within automated resistance when in a conflicting/confrontational situation/event, only because of manifested accepted and allowed beliefs of the other and of yourself existent within and as you.
The beliefs formed due to the Memory experienced as a child that you manifested as yourself. And because of such beliefs, acting in immediate automatic resistance to events/situations that are exactly the same/similar as the Memory as ‘conflicting/confrontational’ situations/events or beings that are exactly the same/similar as the beings involved in the Memory-experience as a child that represent ‘authority’ through their actions/words.


All this existing, playing out and manifesting within your world and yourself within such events/situations - remaining exactly the same, over and over and over again, ad nauseum; due to the manifested Memory existing as a ‘live-memory-moment’ within and as your physical human body, existing as the accepted and allowed beliefs/perceptions/ideas pertaining and existing within and as that Memory which you formed and developed within the Memory – as yourself here in the physical.

Nothing ever changing, because you’ve made yourself believe it to be ‘normal’ because it occurs the same way over and over and over again ad nauseum; making it ‘ordinary’ and ‘okay’ to exist as such an accepted and allowed experience within yourself and all that is involved due to you defining yourself and thus living the Memory, together with all the beliefs and perceptions you developed, formed and designed pertaining to the Memory that manifested the ‘habit’ in the first place.

To release yourself from the Memory itself, you start with applying self forgiveness for the Memory itself as the experience of yourself as a child.
To release yourself from the Memory itself, you start with applying self forgiveness for/of the Memory itself as the experience of yourself as a child – in the ‘breaking down’ of the Memory we discussed/looked at/investigated – you apply self forgiveness on each and every particular point that revealed with regards to the Memory in detail: Going through each part, taking the Memory here – and applying self forgiveness aloud/in written word, though preferably aloud so that you’re able to hear the sound of you voice – for it is in the sound of your voice as self expression here that you in the sound-expression of you here in self-honesty – release the hold of the Memory within you and your physical human body.


Once this is done and you are satisfied that you had effectively applied self forgiveness in self-honest self expression as you as you voiced the self forgiveness aloud to you, yourself in ensuring that you’re not ‘holding back’ on yourself with regards to self forgiveness, but applied it absolutely – you begin with self forgiveness in your world at the moment.

Realise – that you will not have ‘proof’ or ‘confirmation’ with regards to your self forgiveness pertaining to the Memory itself – but your self honesty here with you when assisting and supporting you within applying/expressing the self forgiveness in relation to the Memory and your effectiveness with it thus the application of self-trust through self honest self forgiveness.

‘Play with’ what has been discussed within this document thus far. Taking a ‘Jack-In-The-Box Memory’ and pulling it through to seeing and identifying the ‘behavioral condition’ as manifested ‘habit,’ specifically as I moved with you through this document thus far – as the specificity will pertain to the specificity of your self forgiveness and self corrective application.

In the next document, we’ll go through the specificity of self-forgiveness, of how to apply self forgiveness within the specific ‘break-downs’ of the Memory and how that Memory relates to your world currently, together with the suggested self corrective application to assist and support yourself with as well.

Bruce L.

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