My 2 minutes "no thought" experiment

[june roca]

January 23, 2008
9:12am

9:12am
Got to have a breakthrough today.
My plan...
9:12am

i will do a 15 minutes "no thought" experiment.
9:13am

No one with me, i will be alone with my clock and do it. I will check out for about 30 minutes and will be back to tell you how it went...till then.
9:14am

i did it only for 2 minutes and with eyes closed. Will do it again later today.
10:48am

the self-forgiveness list or video i used http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vo7cBloXBD0
11:05am

I did the self-forgiveness first then the "no thought" 2 minute breakthrough.
11:06am

felt nauseated after the self-forgiveness on self-deceit , am sure i felt sick of my self-deceit and self-compromise, plus the fear. But guess what? I confronted those stuff now and am ready to apply self-responsibility for those
11:08am

in my daily life and that's a breakthrough for me. After the "no thought" experiment, i felt my senses can hear even the sound of silence...very pronounced. Fascinating. Am looking forward to the day wherei will have no thought all day.
11:10am

I had a glimpse of what it will be like, its unexplainable. Its more experiencial..

Anyway, i can't wait till i go to the dimensions to vomit all this self-deceit, i will not have any stomach nor mouth there to vomit with

.till then.

June
www.onenessandequalityaslife.ning.com

[Sunette]

June - we have to stop our own self deceit in every moment - in stopping the existence of self deceit within ourselves, we will not accept/allow it within another as ourselves - and thus each one will stand absolute until this is done - until all of everything of what we have become cease to exist - stops.

Sunette

[june roca]

Thanks Sunette.

I am doing both the self-forgiveness and the breath awareness. The self-deceit i am working on through the self-forgiveness as thoughts, feelings and emotions come up.

I came out in the open posting blogs because i want to express me and what i experience . I want to work on what needs to be worked at as i allow me to work on me and share my experience with everyone also.

I want to understand the process by doing the process. This is the reason i am doing it and coming out in the open .

I also want to read on others experiences, like you for example, because in doing so i would understand more of you. I appreciate you telling me things that is true to you, that is cool, but i would not understand you as me much really. It is your realization, it is your truth because in your process you experienced the truth of those realizations.

If you tell me your experience then i will know why and how you realized what you realized.

Then i will understand you as "me". Without that it is just your truth being passed on to me. I cannot understand you as your truth, i can only understand you as your experience because then i will be able to experience your experience as a being as me as i see my own experience in yours . So it is very valuable for me that you also post your experiences in your process here because through that i will see me in you and in some of your experiences being mine.

If you do not tell me your experiences you had in the past and how you transcended it or applied yourself in daily life and what effects did that have in your relationships with you and others, i will not understand much ( a little bit , yes) of this phrase "and thus each one will stand absolute until this is done".

What i realized is there are beingnesses that looks separate in this world, like you and me looks separate from one another but the life essence that is in that breath does not change. That is the one that in essence does not change.
This is why i am debugging the breath. I want to know which part of "me" does not change as i go from one beingness to another. That stable part is me as you, the one that is in all as per perception in this world allows.

There is separation here i agree in so far as communication is concerned in this world where you and me exist . The life essence inside you and me is the one not changing as per my realization. Our beingness or identity as per this world will be different and separated but the one speaking or writing within the being is in essence not changing and the same. Can you imagine us writing without refering to you as you and me as me? It will be confusing as we cannot decipher whether it is you talking or me. In a scenario where there is no separation, even in communicating, we would not use "as me as you", we would all be writing "me" to refer to both you or me, confusing us both.

With regards to the breathing, if you tell me how you were breathing then, and what you did daily or weekly till you reached the point where you are now, i will understand you better. That is where our reality meets each other
because i can see how that life essence within you which is the same life essence within me expresses itself
in different situations you are in where i also experience (as separate identity or beingness as per this world but with
the same essence "as you as me".)

This is why i keep posting stuff because through my process and telling them what happened as per my experience, i will be opening my experience to them for them to see me and how that life essence in me express as me as them.
If i will not post my experience, i will be tempted to comment on theirs and instead of focusing on my process i will be focusing on theirs.

Sharing your process to me will make me realize more of me as you.

June "as me as you as all"